Sex and Love pt 2

PLUS!

I don’t think I’m that hard to read.

-Rant-

If you come in all showered and everything, smelling nice, I am thinking you are at least interested in sex. I mean, COM”MON! AND then when YOU start touching ME, and I’m moaning and shit, fuck the least you can do is fucking continue. I’m sorry that I said your nail was hurting me. My clit is fucking sensitive I wasn’t telling you to stop, I was asking if you could refrain from scratching my fucking clit off, I happen to like it.

Then when you stop and I start to be sad, gee whiz, I wonder why I’m fucking sad???? I wasn’t sad when you got into the fucking room because I thought I was finally getting fucking laid.

Then when you start to kiss the back of my neck and down my back, fucking continue doing something. Fucking teasing me when my sex average is so low in the past week , not cool. Don’t stop. I don’t think it was that hard of a message either considering I was moving my hips and moaning. I really don’t think this is rocket science here. I just want some fucking sex.

I don’t get why you don’t want it. I really don’t. Especially when I am putting so much out there. It’s not a guessing game here. It is simple.

I don’t want to tell you why I am sad because then you would have sex with me. I know, now I sound weird. I want sex yet I won’t do the thing that will get me it. BUT the thing is I want you to initiate it. I want to feel like you find me attractive and want me. That’s not happening if I am the one initiating sex. I’ve tried that before and it makes me feel disgusting and even more unappealing. I won’t put myself through that again. I refuse to. I am better than that.

I know that I could push you aside and start going down on you, but how low do I have to stoop? You won’t even use my mouth? Do you know how low I feel? Do you understand how much I hate feeling unloved and unattractive and unappealing? You are making me feel that way. And while I am a masochist, I am not an emotional masochist. I sure as shit don’t deserve to be feeling the way you are making me feel.

That’s it I guess…