The Future

My Daddy tasked me with something that is a tad difficult for me. He told me that I should write out what I want in both the short and long term. It is for me, not him. It is hard mostly because I have a hard time sometimes admitting to myself what I want. Especially in the long term.

So let's start in the short term. In the next month I want to get settled in my new place. I think that is the most broad I can answer this and have it encompass everything. I want to get into my routine. I want to get a job. I want to take care of Daddy. I want to clean his house. I want to be in that position for him, to do whatever he wants of me. I know it seems like it may not be for me, but more than anything it will make me happy. And that is what I hope to achieve in the next month. I want to be happy.

I don't want it to sound like I was depressed, because I definitely wasn't. I am always a pretty happy person, however my home life wasn't good. I wasn't happy in that situation. It finally got to be too much. But, I know that this move is going to be so good for me.

In the long term? Well... I don't know. I want a life. I want to teach. I want other things that make me scared to admit. I want a family. I want happiness. I want to be able to succeed in every way. I want to succeed in home, work, family. The one that scares me most to admit is the family part. It is what I want though. So, I will admit it.

I want happiness. Whether I am talking about short or long term, I want happiness. That is what I am working towards. Simple perhaps, and maybe that is what everyone is working for. I hope this fills whatever my Daddy had in mind for me. Maybe a glimpse into what I want when I am down there. I want happiness. And to be honest, I want him. In the short term. And in the long term. That perhaps is hard for me as well. Admitting that I want him. It scares me. However, happiness is what I want. I can see happiness with him. So I don't know if I did what he was expecting with this. I hope I did. If not, expect another blog. :-P