Life. So it goes.

So, I thought about posting this in my other blog, but it is a bit more personal and going to be mentioning some kinky stuff briefly so I decided to put it here. Sorry if it is absolutely boring and is a waste space here... :-P

I have struggled with my weight since... well, since forever. There are reasons I am the weight I am, the biggest hurdle is genetics. You can ask my Daddy, everyone in my family is pretty hefty. I think the best thing for me is that I haven't let my weight get me down or allow it to bring down my self-esteem. Another great thing is that I am genuinely healthy. I'm sure that come 30 years if I did nothing about it that might be different, but I am healthy now.

However, I do want to lose some weight. My Daddy and I videotaped us having sex. I don't know if it was the angle, or the intensity that he was plowing me, or what, but it was a huge wake-up call. I want to lose weight. I have been bitten by the 'lose weight' fairy before, but I am hoping that it sticks this time...

Christmas is coming up and I am spending it with my grandparents. I am really looking forward to it, but my grandma is notorious for not allowing me to eat healthy. It is an extremely long and weird story, and not one I wish to go into here... But I know that I will not be losing weight there. I struggle just to maintain whenever I am with them. Besides the point though, when I return I will be hitting the diet full force. My dinner portions can definitely be cut down, or at least my meat portions. I need to start eating breakfast without fail. I need to be smarter about my lunch choices. All that kind of good stuff.

In May, my Daddy and I are going to Shibaricon. I am so excited about it. It is my goal to be down 20-30 pounds by then. It can totally be done. 5 months and 30 pounds is a healthy amount of time to loose the weight.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I really am motivated.