Dating and Fucking

I have dated three people in my life. I have never been a fan of dating. I always thought that those people in high school who bounced from boyfriend to boyfriend to boyfriend were sort of silly. I mean, I have always understood that dating was a trial for marriage. Really, that is what dating is for in my mind. [Or spending the rest of your lives together as I know some people don't believe in marriage]

My first boyfriend was when I was a freshman. We dated for over a year and a half. I've talked about him here before. He was the abusive one. While I didn't love him, and looking back I don't think I thought I would marry him. However, it was a relationship that [for high school standards] was long. At the time maybe I did think marriage was in our future... However, it wasn't something that just passed the time.

My second boyfriend was one of my best friends. He was a really great guy that I definitely could have seen a future with. However, we were HORRIBLE as a couple. Seriously, we were awful. We dated for around six months. It was an awful relationship, but we went to being best friends afterward. I didn't date him for 'something to fill my time with'. I thought there was a great possibility for a future.

My third [and hopefully final] boyfriend is, you guessed it, my Daddy! Obviously I believe [and hope with all my heart] that we will have a future. We have talked about the future. [Including the Tiffany's locking necklace that would make a beautiful 'wedding' collar... ehem...] We have talked about kids. We have talked long term.

So, many of you may be confused, because I have had more partners than boyfriends. That's because I put value on the term boyfriend. I have had fuck buddies. I have guys [and girls] I can call up if I want to fuck or play around. So many people I know would call those people boyfriends or girlfriends to feel better about hooking up with them. I am much more honest. If I don't see a future with us but still want to hook up? That's awesome, we can be fuck buddies.

I've had people look down upon me because I mess around with people who I am not in a relationship with. I laugh, because the people look down upon me for this almost always are the same people who have a different boyfriend/girlfriend every week who they fuck. Just because they fuck within a 'relationship' it is apparently okay. Even when that relationship has a shelf life of two weeks. It baffles me. It really does.

HNT - a peak

Ice Cream Cravings.

So, I have talked here about my family before. They don't really like my Daddy... Argh, it is frustrating. However, they also see that I've been with him for a while and he loves me and supports me. So, it's getting better.

My mom still says things though. I mean, I'm 19. I'm sure she didn't expect me to be in such a serious relationship at this age. Especially with an older man. So, she is handling it very well considering. She has gotten much better over time. She used to be... well her actions were sort of indescribable. She was definitely not open to it and did/said some awful things.

She has gotten much better though as I have said. Really she keeps her comments to a minimum. However every now and then she does say things. Last night I called her when I was walking to the convenience store. I went to go get some ice cream because I really wanted some. So when she asked what I was doing I told her. Her response? "Are you taking your birth control? Are you pregnant?".

Ummmm???? No. I just want some ice cream...

Since when has wanting ice cream meant being pregnant?

*sighs*

Whatcha gunna do?

Sick Slave Girl

Since moving I have realized my immune system has not been kicking ass as much lately. I get headaches much easier and my stomach gets upset easier, just all around aches come around more often. It could be from the weird weather right now [going from 40s to 70s, rainy then sun then cold] or it could be from lack of things to do. Okay, I know that sounds weird but it has been a thought in my head recently.

Whenever I had a stomachache or a headache or some sort of sickness before, I still had work or school. Unless the sickness was major, I still had to get up and do my duties. Because I'm unemployed and my classes are online, I really can wallow in my sickness. I can take naps and baby myself. I'm not saying it's bad, because I'm taking care of my body obviously, but it is different.

I woke up in the middle of the night last night and got sick. It made for a restless night. I was tossing and turning and it just wasn't pleasant. When I woke up around 10 I could feel my body pulsating and aching. I would do somethings then doze on the couch, do somethings, then doze. I finally realized that perhaps taking an actual nap would help. So at 1:30ish I went to take a nap, and didn't wake up until after 5:30. Over 4 hours. That definitely tells you that I needed some rest. However when I woke up some of the aches were still there. Which stinks, but oh well. It is a much different way that I am approaching my maladies these days. If I found a job I know that I would start handling them the old way again. I wouldn't baby my body, I would just force myself to work through it. It's just different

E[Lust] #8

HNT Courtesy of Blue-Eyed Vixen

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This Isn’t Play. . . BDSM and Rape - The very basic principle that we hold so dear in BDSM play, “Nothing without consent” seems to stand in stark contrast to a very common form of play, “Rape Play”.

Half-Full - When I get my ass beaten, is it as much for the sensation as it is for the “Good girl…I knew you could take that for me.” that I want so badly at the close of the scene?

House Party Part 2 -His wife walked by at one point and he cryptically asked her to "do what she did to so-and-so earlier". His wife disappeared behind me, but I felt her hands touching me and his cock as it entered me.

~ e[lust] Editress ~

Backseat Orgasms - We kissed lightly and without focus, both a sensual act and maddening at the same time. More, I needed more. In a blur I was on my knees on the seat, straddling his leg, his mouth latched onto one nipple and his fingers hunting for the key to undoing my dress pants.

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Are You Watching Me? - A plan of devious proportions begins to form. Before this is over with, I will have forced you into a corner…forced you to act…forced you to give ME what I want.

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Erotic Writing

A story of FL

Contemplation

Cuddling

Floor Exercises

Good day for a milking

Goodbye

G-Spot Orgasms Galore - Part 2

Initiation

Logan

Mark. Confession #423

Mouth

Nothing says I love you quite like...

Playful and Dangerous

Play your part

Plotter

Splish Splash

The Library Hotel

The Secret I Couldn't Keep

Triple X

Three A.M. Surprise

Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships

Anatomy of Desire (PT. Two)

Better Cautious Than Raped

Lingerie Tales Vol 1 An Obsession Begins

My life as a gamer's slave

Perplexed

Saturday Texting

So Simple

The Elusive Female Orgasm

The G Spot Mouse or How To Make A Woman Squirt

Transtastic: On Language

Kink & Fetish

A No Limits Slave?

Are Discipline and Punishment The Same?

BDSM Advice Series: Pet Play

Bondage 101—Part 1: Bondage Basics

Breaking the Demons

Dark/DirtyBlog Crush

Factory Doll

Hand vs. toys

I'm on a book cover: 'The Punishment List' by Abel

Kink

Men as sex objects

Rough Porn

Raleigh and La Fortress

Savouring the texture of my skin with his teeth

The Way They Look At Me

The Slut Chronicles #13 ~ The Auction

Whither the spankosphere?

Sex News, Interviews, Politics & Humor

Happy Valentines Day!

Hookers, Catholic School Students and Facebook

Lane Bryant Makes Puppies and Kittens Cry

Pussy Cosmetics and Vagina Myths

RTT - Shoe Edition

Pink and white!!! I love wedges. I never really have done well with other types of heels. I always end up flat on my face. I used to be able to walk amazingly in heels when I was in 6th-9th grade. Then some horrific thing must have happened because I couldn't anymore... weird right?
















Aren't these just cute? I feel like I could wear them to a picnic or something. :)


















Juicy. Mmm. Wedges. Sandals. Juicy. It can't get any better.















Shoes shoes shoes!!! Pink and wedges. With polka dots!!! I'm in love.

Contest!!!

Okay, so I love my readers, yes, YOU!!! I love you. Not in the creepy way, because I don't know most of you in real life. Anyway, that's not what most of you care about. You care about the details of this fabulous contest that I am holding. Okay, maybe not so fabulous for me, but definitely fabulous for the winner!

So, what is this contest exactly?

Well, it really does benefit me as much as it benefits you. I like people reading my blog. I know, I'm selfish like that. So I figured a contest would help me gain a few more readers. Some may think this is not cool, but I'm not requiring that you stay after the contest, but who knows, you may like here enough that you do stay. [That is my hope at least] So, my likes are satisfied because I gain more readers and your likes are satisfied because you get... a 25 dollar gift card to edenfantasy!!!!!

Whoa, 25 dollars???

Alright, it's not that much. However, it is enough to buy one favorite toys [at the moment] the gspot caress . It's also better than nothing! Not to mention, Edenfantasy.com really does have some fabulous toys for less than 25 dollars. They have a great selection process for narrowing down toys so you can find something you want. Also, EF has other stuff besides toys, like lingerie. Not to mention, EF has great prices. Seriously, they do.

Okay, enough chat about that, how about the details of how to enter???

There are many ways to enter.

1- comment on this post. You can tell me why you need the gift card, why you read my blog, why you haven't read my blog, why you will continue to read my blog, what you would do with the 25 dollars, why you deserve it, what your dog's name is, it doesn't matter. The content of the comment won't be judged, just the fact that you do comment.

2- Tweet about the contest. It doesn't hurt if you follow me either... Just make sure to use the hashtag #JBD and link to my site - http://bit.ly/a3H35F. Your tweet will count once a day, so you can retweet every day for up to seven entries!

3- Follow me. If you already follow me, you are automatically entered for this part. I have the handy button over there in the right hand side bar, so it's super easy to follow me.

Here comes the big entry part!

4- You can comment on three separate posts a day. From any month. Of course you can comment on more posts, but only three a day [on separate posts] will be counted. Which means that this can earn you three entries a day, for seven days, [Your comment on this post does not count for your three posts for today]

Alright, so let's say you did everything that was laid out above. You would have 30 entries!!!! That's pretty darn amazing. I know it may be a bit time consuming, but your 30 entries might beat out someone with only fifteen. I'm not saying you have to do everything. Someone who just comments on this could be the lucky winner, you never know. You don't have to do everything listed above. Like I said, I have motives for hosting this to get more readers. By encouraging you to read some of my later stuff you get to see my journey better and may be more interested in sticking around. :)

The contest will end Sunday, Feb 28th at midnight EST.

The Future... of this blog

So, as many of you know, I don't have a job. I take a couple of classes, but nothing too serious. Which means my days are pretty open at the moment. Which is great for being a slave, because I can devote my time to chores and making sure things are running smoothly in the house. However, I still do productive things that do not pertain to the house, such as writing reviews. Also, this blog. I have had this blog for a while, and in the beginning it was more for my [and my Daddy's] use. I know a few of you have been around since then, it was definitely readable to an outside reader. However, I wasn't about the readers.

Now? Well, now I am more involved in the blogging community. If you look over to the right hand side bar you will see about 20 blogs that I read every single post they make. I am always looking for more blogs to read as well. I try to comment on their posts, I follow them on twitter, I genuinely like reading what they have to say. I still post for myself, it is nice to have something that captures my journey, but I also feel like I write for you, the reader. Some of my posts are meant for others to read, such as my post about Doctors. I feel like I have a [albeit small compared to other blogs] following. I have more followers now, and in a couple days there will also be something especially nice for you readers.

So, where is this blog going? I think it is a good question to ask. I will tell you my goals. I want people to read my blog. I like knowing that people either find me helpful, entertaining, or just a good read. In the coming weeks I plan on moving to my own domain. I want to change my layout and cannot do so with the blogger templates. I am really excited about this. I think it'll give my blog a bit more oomph.

So, stay tuned. We are going on a ride.

Memories

Ever put on a song and remember the good times that relate to it? One song that will always bring up memories no matter when I hear it is "I Write Sins not Tragedies" by Panic! at the Disco. It came out my freshman year of high school. Oh man, that was THE song.

It came on my IPOD the other day and I have been obsessed with listening to it ever since. My best friend and I had a whole dance that we would do to the song. We had the same gym hour so we would both bring our IPODs to gym class and press play at the EXACT SAME TIME so we could do our dance while walking around the track. Looking back, those were some really fun times.

Her and I were in a group of close knit friends, we dubbed ourselves MAC since all of our first initials were either M, A, or C. When we got together, music was a staple. P!atD was always a part of the playlist. We had some great great times.

We all drifted apart. Which happens in high school. We all [minus one] are all friends on facebook. We keep in touch, but really don't *talk* anymore. One of them I would still consider a close friend [the one who was my best friend back then]. However, time allows other things to drift in between us. I remember swearing that we would be friends forever. I remember the promises to be each other's bridesmaids. I remember the nights that we were all each other had. Now, those are memories. If I needed someone in the middle of the night I would call on my Daddy or my best friend [who wasn't a part of MAC, but I did know my freshman year of high school]. I wouldn't call on them to be my bridesmaids [or as we joked for the guys, bridesmales]. It is sad and strange how time changes things. I think we all knew in our hearts that we would drift apart. It happens with most people. It's sad. But things change.

I will always have the memories though. I will have have P!atD. I will be able to close my eyes and see us dancing away on the gym track. I will carry that with me through life. Maybe that's all we can ask for. Great memories...

Review- Between the Sheets Game.

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